ME: BP,69 WP,69 dd: 12/21
Need Help Understanding Behavior
This is my first post and I am still learning the protocol. Not sure if this is the correct place for my question. My profile contains my complete story.
Though the WP and I are no longer together, we remain friends and do many activities together. I live 10 miles from the house that I owned with him and he still lives in (he bought me out in December). I have not been back into the house since last November. He continues his SA activities taking women he hooks up on the internet to this home. I ruminate about them sitting on my furniture (I left everything), and having sex with him in what was my master bedroom, or wherever in the house. I've told him he should find someone else to be his friend instead of me, but he says he doesn't want to start over. I keep telling him that I am not recovering, after 1.5y in therapy.
In 2023 I was diagnosed with two eye diseases that could leave me blind. He tells me that he will always be there for me, and this is the main reason I remain his friend. I just don't know how to cope with all of this. I am paralized with the fear of taking care of myself solo, and at the same time suffering by remaining his friend.
2 comments posted: Saturday, March 7th, 2026
