Dreading Son's Wedding
I will be seeing my former husband for the first time in 14 years at the wedding of our son next year. He initiated the divorce; I did not want it. He has remarried; I have not. His wife will be in attendance.
In our religous practice, both sets of parents escort their respective child, the bride or the groom, down the aisle to marriage canopy.
The thought of even breathing the same air as this man makes me sick.
I love my son and we have an excellent relationship, and he has an excellent relationship with his father, for which I am very grateful and proud of him. I keep trying to focus on it being a day all about Beloved Son and his Beloved. Even musing about what I might wear elicits overpowering feelings of rage and hate and anger.
I am working with a therapist to try and find a way to live through it. Wondering what thoughts this community might have.
9 comments posted: Tuesday, June 3rd, 2025
