Im in a living hell

Found out 3 weeks ago wife of 33yrs has been havingvan affair with her work colleague for over 18months .I found the evidence on her phonebwhilst using it to dial my phone .she had graphic videos of them both having sex along with pictures and text dating back to may this year .The sextoing referred to several points that was quite upsetting .one was her preference for black cock and how she wanted his babies .he would be asking her to send him graphic photos of her vagina which she did whilst we were outcon our wedding anniversary meal .she has been cruel to me these past two years .putting me down hardly talking to me .I've always put up with this as I have known no different. After finding this evidence I woke her from her sleep and confronted her .she just sat there with a blank expression saying sorry. She moved out that day July 20th and has now moved into her own rented flat .my two daughters want nothing to do with her .I have tried to explain it shouldntvreflect on their relationships but my youngest daughter gets married next year and the sexting referred to them saving up to leave their relevant others the day after the wedding. My wife has always been controlling but nowhere near on this level .I'm having really bad anxiety and mixed emotions I can't just shut off 33yrs together. I'm genuinely feeling true heartache .which doesn't help as I have had a prosthetic heart valve replaced 4 yrs ago .I know its early stages and I can't help still loving her how do I move on ?should I move on ? My life feels like it's ended .

5 comments posted: Sunday, August 18th, 2024