So Confused, Hurt, Humiliated...
But strong...
DDay #1 06/23/13
DDay #2 08/05/2013
DDay #5 02/08/14
DDay #3 08/12/13
DDay #4 08/13/13
DDay #5 08/17/22
...you get the idea

Married Sept 14 2015
Fully in R

He left…

Well, he made his decision.
He left early this morning…left everything behind, all belongings, phone, iPad , even his shoes.
I posted last week about my newest dday. I haven’t been kind (like I was the first 4 times). Instead I called him out every day, because I knew there was lots more than he was disclosing.
Now onto explaining all this to the family…

8 comments posted: Tuesday, August 23rd, 2022

Wow- I guess I’m back 😞

Another DDay under my belt…
It’s been ages since I’ve posted. So much has happened since 2013 when all this garbage came out.
We reconciled, went to meetings, counseling a couple years later…got married
Now we currently have been living with my parents for the last 7 years as their full time caretakers.
My dad has dementia and mom is physically complicated.
I broke my back in 2017, Bed bound for three years while I argued with my Kaiser Dr. That I needed it fixed.
Found a specialist last year in February who saw my mri and started I needed surgery asap.
Got it last year June 18th and have been in active recovery since then.
So yeah- it’s been a rough road.
We are working on clearing out our storage and my dads garage to get a head start on a huge project.
Sunday, I walked up behind my hubby in the garage and he pulled the "exit quickly from what he was doing on his phone and pretend he was on FB" crap.
I triggered hard and asked him who he was chatting with…gaslighted hard.
Today- the doubts never go away. When you have "that feeling" follow your gut.
Found emails in his "sent" folder…thread between his ex-gf and himself. The ole "I miss you" and "I miss talking to you" crapola. It’s been going on for a while because she knows all of what’s been going on here…well shit.

He’s at a SA meeting right now- and I’m here contemplating what to do…
Thanks for reading

9 comments posted: Wednesday, August 17th, 2022