Met the man of my dreams. Fell 110% head over heels! Was, what I thought, the perfect wife. Loved, cooked & satisfied him in EVERY way.....(which is what I thought! Was on top of the world!)
Met in 2008.
Married in 2013,
Days before our 5 year wedding anniversary, found out he’d been in a relationship for 14 years!
Blew my mind, body & soul.
Still currently married. Kids (from my previous marriage) left the house.
Moved to our beautiful vacation home.
Here I am, not having to work, living by the ocean...unsatisfied.
Been to therapy, together & separate.
I am still attractive, fun & sexy. ( From what I’m told)
Trust is gone.
He’s trying, but I have learned so much about myself.
I absolutely cannot give him all of what I did before.
It’s just not there.
The man I married is dead to me & I feel like I’m in an arranged marriage to a man, whom I would have NEVER chosen.
Feeling trapped, unhappy, with him, and just playing the part.
We’ve spoken about this & I feel he’s desperately grasping at straws.
I just can’t get over it, and feel like he just dug his grave.
Maybe if he married someone else, he’d be better off, but he betrayed the wrong woman!
I am a loyal woman & to be betrayed by a man, who’s manipulated, took advantage of my everything & premeditated every meeting with her, I just cannot move on & grow with him.
He lived a double life & is realizing he’s losing the best thing he had.
I almost wish he’d just go back to her.
If he’s not already, Who knows?
I do not believe one single word he says.
I’ve gotten rid of any possible memory of “us”. No pictures, all social media photos deleted.
Couldn’t even wear our wedding ring anymore, which he had replaced.
And certainly couldn’t seat myself in the same truck he took her out in.Which was also reaplaced.
I’m mostly checked out.
He did this to the wrong woman, that’s for sure.
He destroyed my faith, love and everything that I thought a relationship should be.
I’ve since become totally disconnected, with zero guilt.
Karma will get him back.
I don’t stress over his phone or anything else.
This man, not only ruined the best thing that happened to him, but he feels remorseful & like a piece of garbage every minute!
Not me though......you reap what you sew!
Taking things day by day.,... poor bastard!